Why is it when I have the time I don't have the money.....

Why is it that when I have the time I don't have the money, and when I have the money I don't have the time?  I have all these projects I want to do around our house, but I  have no time to do them because I have been working so much and going to school.  Now that I have cut back my hours at work, I have a lot more time, but a lot less money.  I need to be more creative and plan ahead, when I work the extra hours I need to buy the supplies for a project and stash them so I can do the project when I am not working.  Of course that would mean I also have to remember that I bought those supplies....

I love my family, they say that when the going gets tough, the tough get going, and that is exactly what I have seen from them recently.  Sometimes having a lot of stubborn, strong willed people in the family is really a great thing, because we stick together, work together, support each other and no one is going to let anyone else quit.  When I married I thought I was marrying in to the perfect family that would make everything wonderful, what I have discovered is that I already  had the perfect Mormon family, we were just incognito.  Do we have a lot of faults and make a lot of mistakes? Sure we do, but so does everyone else!  Some people are just more public about their mistakes than others and guess what?   The atonement covers us all.

My focus has not been on working lately, and my paycheck is going to show it, but sometimes, OK often, there are things a lot more important than money, like emotional support and strength.  I am looking to find the right job for myself, I am getting too old to do bedside nursing, it is just too physical, but I am afraid of making a mistake and choosing the wrong job and right this minute is probably not the best time to start something new.  I found a quote today from a book called Managing Transitions (Bridges, 1991).  He says to ask yourself "Am I pushing  for certainty and closure where it would be better for me to live a little longer with uncertainty and questions?"  OK, so I put quotation marks and that is not an exact quote because the book is geared at institutional change, not personal change, but I quoted it the way it works for me.   I think right now I just need to relax a little, clean my house, enjoy the sun, talk to my family and see what happens.